— Sisterhood of the Traveling Pants

i feel so guilty, i just realised that cassandra doesn't have braces on anymore and the thing is, she took it out on 31st july. haha i feel so stupid. hope there's some kind of bffl gatheringggggggggggggggggggggggggg :/

ok well, today turned out okay? i am thinking of wednesday appointment. should i or should i not cancel it? will i or will i not have ittttttttt. ok well let's hope i find my way to the doctor's :)

oh you know what, a lady with heels practically stepped on me and her heels went into my flats. thing is, she didn't even have the initiative to turn around and give a simple and sincere apology. haha, and thing is, nowadays people have saying that students are very rude. but what about adults who don't even have basic manners? ok i think i've got to head to the toilet and bathe and shittttttttttttttt :) i will be back after the pictures load finish. k back.

happy birthday benjamin slash smallest eyes!
 

ktv today, first time :)

yeah you can see that my fringe is really screwed. haha no-more-bangs. hmm i think i am going to watch Moonlight Resonance now! although there's school tomorrow. hmm guess i will be skipping it :)

i miss you, i miss your smile. and i still shed a tear, every once in a while. even though it's different now, you're still here somehow, my heart won't let you go and i need you to know
i miss you

 

well let's see. my dage had a girlfriend and he lied. should i be happy?
and i found out that i've already given up on us. should i be happy?
plan, planning, planed. the plan is dying and it died. hahah my dad bought me a bag of lays. yay hahahaha. hmmmmm i was thinking of fetching my da ge tomorrow ^^ probably to catch up for the time we've lost. and no, different school doesn't mean your status is different ok.

as to the stranger, i want to ask if you treat me like a * like how i treated you like a *. even though it doesn't seem like it, i know it. i know you hold that very important status in my heart even though i don't show it. i don't know why but i miss you. so terribly that is hurts and everytime when it comes down to you i just don't seem to get it. don't seem to get what am i typing. ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh you're smarter than i thought, really.
ok no more emo posts here.

well last week was such an emo nemo week. to think that hm actually said that. all i can was wow. yeah, i so did not expected it but what can i say? but everything's over and i shouldn't dwell on it right? i should plan my escape. i don't know why but i feel like getting rid of everyone around me except minnxuan. why her? i don't know too. probably she doesn't cares about my feeling that's why. the same reason why she went with her. but seriously, i don't think i have much friends, not even a handful of them. haha i was so lonely today. i was thinking, if i had my DSLR, i would be at starbucks today, reading my book. it would've felt so good. but the good's gone and the gone's good. ok i have no idea what am i talking about.

this few months made me ... happier? hahaha i don't know, but i feel happier, i think. or maybe i look happier. oh look who's calling :) the trippy three :D

yay i just love talks like this even though i'm not participating much but just listening to them laugh, i feel gooooood. i can't bear to leave, but i have to. well i could feel the real meeeeeeeeeeeeee :) i miss jasper.

i hope this happiness in me last, really. i feel so light. my heart feels so full yet empty. i know i am happy. it has been so long since i felt like that. but i know things are going to end, soon. i am hungryyyy, famished. haha i forgot what i wanted to type. it was important. haha stupid me. oh yeah, did i mention that i failed five subjects? ohhhhhh what i wanted to say, ok wait no, ask was if i should skip school on tuesday :/ hmm i planned to go my uncle's today but yeah i was too lazy, i think i should go on tuesday, settle everything then maybe i can get my dslr sooon :) and yeah, casselyn. she isn't doing really well now :( i read her blog, so many vulgarities so many stress. her sister don't respect her, her parents giving her stress, her life with clubbing, her boyfriend, her guidance programme. sometimes i wish i could take everything away, take everything out of her life. bring happiness in her life and the life of other's. i want to bring happiness to people, i thought i accomplished it, but no, i read something which changed the principles i once had. i know i've got a temper that is really bad, but sometimes i couldn't control it.

i tried, i really did. once, i thought of going to the doctor's because i thought i had some problems and needed some help with my depressed heart. this heart was hard to handle, but i was happy with it. i am going to look positive in every negative, find the light in every darkness. i will be okay. we will be okay :')

goodnight readers, if there's any. 
 

 

"It'd taken her four drinks to discover that i wasn't the sharing kind. Far too many people opened their hearts and lives at a drop of a hat, as far as i was concerned. Why give someone that power over you? Why endow them with the ability to hurt you that much? Let them in and you were asking for an emotional kicking some day."